FRIENDSHIPS ARE DEAD

There is no such thing as a best friend! This is something I've thought about for a good while now. For me the concept of best friends died in middle school, even way before that. If you did not make a bff in elementary and kept contact with them, it is impossible to find a lifetime long friendship. Seriously!! 

As you grow up, you gain more responsibilities, romantic relationships, a job, college, etc. And now as a university student I seriously have no good friends. It drains me, makes me extremely unhappy. I try very very hard to take school friendships outside of school, I have tried numerous times but no one seems interested. For example, for my birthday a few years ago I wanted to throw a slumber party, everybody canceled on me that exact same day, except for one friend, which believe me I'm eternally grateful for! But still, no one wants to go have a fun day at the mall, get together to watch movies, play games or even study! 

I also always offer my friends rides in case they can't manage to get from the hangout place to their homes, just for me to see them, but no!! Nobody wants anything. Another example is that a few months ago I decided to invite my friends over for a bbq at my place, we agreed on a date, time, place, everything. When I tried asking them if they were okay with rescheduling because of some very intense coursework we had to complete for that same monday they said they were not even going to go!! They canceled on me and did not even tell me anything. Seriously, who does that?! That made me so incredibly upset.

I crave strong, smart, socially active, down for anything female friendships, but everybody just seems okay with just hanging out with their SO. And I understand that, I'm also in a relationship. But I think that every area of life needs attention. There are things I want and can only talk about with my friends. Why is everything an inconvenience for everybody? For my last birthday I did not even consider throwing anything because I just knew it was going to be an impossible task, I even had a pinterest board with ideas and was pretty upset about the fact that it was not going to be possible to do it. 

There are also the outside school friendships. I met an incredibly funny girl at work, we connected right away. We shared the same interests, taste, and pretty much everything. She is a bit older than me. Last time I saw her was during her birthday dinner. Had a nice time, gave her a gift. She later texted me saying she loved it and said that she would love for us to hangout more during summer. I said "absolutely I would love that!!!" guess what? She never answered me. That was seven months ago... I seriously just want to give uppp! 

I´ve got a bunch of stories like this, but despite all of them, I try to remain hopeful nonetheless…

Has anything like this happened to you? If yes, how do you deal with the rejection?

-Jasmin